Music 2010

Songs that I loved in 2010

VTV - Had Rahman's magic in every song, not his best though
Ek thi ladki - I love that kutti girl!
Aval appadi ondrum azhagillai - Aaha, amrutham! Amruthavarshini!
Shiela ki jawani - What's her name?
Uff teri ada - Might sound funny but this song is special for me since I saw this movie in the flight from Chennai to Brussels. Also, Deepika looks Gorgeous! :P
Idhu varai - Ajeeeeeesh :)
En jannal vandha kaatre - Reminds me of the last few times I went out with my friends
Usure pogudhe - The last movie I saw in Chennai
Enna kuraiyo from Mandhira punnagai - Do I even need a reason to like this song??? ;)

Goodbye 2010

Surprise!!!... 2010 was the year of surprises for me. It all began with the surprise visit to Rajesh’s house on New Year’s Eve. 15 years of friendship, long and strong. I met a lot of old friends on the first day of the year. Felt like a kid again, was reminded of the days we used to play treasure hunt in that BIG colony, our New Year’s Eve preparations, competitions, prizes, fun and not to forget, Food.
The first part of this year was my happy eighth semester. Seventh semester wasn’t a good time for me. In fact, I hated coming to college. Little did I expect to feel the opposite in the eighth semester. I was happy, if not always, at least most of the time. If I wasn’t happy, there was just one reason, just ONE. I had a few surprises during the course of the semester. Some of which were good, others were complicated!
End of a beautiful part of my life, college. Peak of surprises! Wo-ow! Some made me feel happy while some made me feel dumb. My friendship with a few doubled, tripled and quadrupled. I could identify my true friends who would stay by me, all the time. Some of them are in India, very few in the US, and I have 3 to 4 new ones in the list.
My biggest surprise of the year, I am in the US! Six years ago I wasn’t sure if I would be an engineer. And I’m pursuing my Masters degree now! I was doubtful about moving to the US for my Masters degree. If not for a few of my friends, I wouldn’t have been here now.
This surprise syndrome continued in the second half of the year too. Surprisingly, I talk to people in India more than I do to those in the country I live in. I cook pretty well! I am friends with someone I din think I would be friends with. I can stay without sleep for 2 days. I can sleep till 1:30 pm. Lot of self-realization surprises.
Right now, I want 2011 to be filled with surprises too! Sweet surprises though ;)

I think...

It is one of those days... Days when I spend hours thinking why I do certain things the way I do. Introspection. In fact, there have been times when I think why I think about all that I do! :D Crazy, I know. But unfortunately, I do it. And not even once have I got an answer that convinces me so much that I needn't think again. I just stop thinking once I have some other work for my brain. Its dangerous when I let my brain idle. Makes me go crazy! (I know, crazier is what is supposed to be there. But,, let me think about it ;) )
Thinking brings in confusion rather than clarity, trust me! Sometimes, it is better that our actions are impulsive. Impulsive, I am one, most of the times. When I'm not one, I'll be this confused oh-my-god character who worries too much.
Right now, I'm in non-impulsive mode. Oh-my-God! :'( I wish decisions had an undo button. Life would have been just Awesome! Sometimes small decisions change your life so much that you can never get back although you want to badly! I hate this! Grrr...
Now I'm wondering if I should post this. And the decision will be made, in a minute. And tada!!! You know my decision ;)
P.S. : I can undo this one! :P

I am happy

Life is very different now. Not in terms of food, language or lifestyle. It is just different in a sense that only I can understand. Friends are not just people I meet in the bus or class and talk over phone. I live with them. Feels odd to sit and make a grocery list or pay the gas bills for the first time in your life, that too with friends. Every day is filled with compromises and silent promises. We are a family.
I was very skeptical about my life here. Far away from my comfort zone. But here I'm, in a new family, where people express their love for me not the way the family I left back in India used to. The way I was brought up is slightly different from most children. My mom didn't run around the house carrying a plate of food to feed me when I had to go to school. My dad didn't appreciate me even when all my friends' parents did. And I don't feel bad. That is the only reason why I don't miss my parents as most people do. I'm thankful to them, to have brought me up as an independent girl. But here, things are very different. 11:00 pm, I had my project submission in an hour and I had no time to eat. One roomie prepares the food and one roomie feeds me (trust me, my eyes turned moist then). I feel lucky to have them as my room-mates. One roomie never hesitates to help us. She sees to that nothing stops us from studying or working on our projects. Right from preparing dinner to buying groceries, she does it all. If not for her, I would've starved for days here or would've lived on sub-s. Home made food, filled with love and affection, is what keeps me going!
Another roomie, this blog post is solely because of her. I just love her. She acts as my mother when she scolds me for exactly the same things that my mom would. Striking resemblance! She acts as my sister when she patiently listens to me and advices me. She is my friend when she has to put up with all my hyper-active-mood screams and crazy talks. She is my baby sister when she pleads for 10 more minutes of sleep or gets yelled at for being the lazy kid that she is. If there is one thing that I think is the best decision I have made about this new phase in my life, it is the decision to stay with her. I wouldn't have had the peace of mind I have now, wouldn't have enjoyed the life here, wouldn't have felt totally un-homesick, if not for her. I'm lucky to have her in my life. I'm totally happy :) :) :)

Love you girlie! :)

I told her, something that i didn't know if I could tell her. But I did. She cried. Even my mom wouldn't have cried on phone. She did, she couldn't control her tears. I love her!...
I miss talking to her. I miss her i-had-awesome-food sessions, her shopping reports. I miss phone-learning and phone-teaching. I miss her. I know my phone conversations with her is gonna go down in the future, I know. But I know that she'll understand. I know that she is missing me too. We know that is not how much we talk to each other that matters. Even if we don't talk to each other for months, or worse, years, we still know that we're thinking of each other every now and then.

She is my sunshine! :)

Savior

I did not see that man. I did not know what was happening. I just know, that I exist today in this world because of him. I'm indebted to him. I wish I had the presence of mind to see him. I feel ashamed of that everyday... To my savior, "Thank you!".